I thought Ziggy was dead today

Quote from Gina

I'm so sorry. I'll bet you really miss Casey. I'm going to be lost for awhile when Ziggy is gone. I'm the kind of person that is nostalgic and I'm going to be crying a lot every time anything reminds me of Ziggy for a long time .

Have you considered getting another dog?

yes i wanted one butt gave up

IT WOULDN'T BE FAIR FOR THEM AND I CAN'T WALK A DOG OR CLEAN DOG POO UP

OR LITTLER BOXES

AND I CAN'T AFFORD THEIR FOOD SO IT MAKES NO SENSE WHO WOULD TAKE CARE OF THEM IF I WAKE UP DEAD SOON

I SLEEP A LOT MORE OFF AND ON AND ALSO KEEP BUSY ONLINE TO TRY AND KEEP MIND ALERT

THE SLOW BLOOD FLOW IS HARD TO UNDERSTAND OR REMEMBER THAT IS WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME AT TIMES LOL

I CAN'T DO VET VISITS OR PAY FOR ALL THAT CRAP

ALL MY MONEY IS TIED UP IN THIS HOUSE SO I MAY BE WELL OFF ON PAPER I JUST CAN'T GET ANY CASH FLOW

UNLESS I UP AND SELL THIS PLACE AND I MOSTLY DON'T WANT TO LEAVE HERE

THEY GIVE ME $1100 A MONTH SOCIAL SECURITY DISABILITY AS THEY TOLD ME YOU CAN'T WORK ANY LONGER AND A LONG SHEET OF CHEMICALS I CAN'T BE AROUND AT ALL

I LASTED 6 MONTH TRYING TO KEEP MY CLEANING BUSINESS GOING

BUTT I HAD TO QUIT OR DIE TRYING

USING A OXYGEN TANK AND SITTING IN OFFICE CHAIRS WHILE I RAN THE SWEEPER WAS PLAIN INSANE I DECIDED IT WAS FAR TOO MUCH FOR ME THEN

SO I TOLD EACH ACCOUNT ON THEIR INVOICE THAT I HAD A BAD HEART AND HAD TO QUIT IN 30 DAYS

SO I GAVE ALL THE KEYS BACK

17 YEARS WAS A VERY GOOD RUN

FLUSHING TOILETS FOR A LIVING LOL

BETTER THAN SALES I KEPT SAYING

OR A BINGO CALLER OR A SHOE SALESMAN OR WASHER DRYERS FURNITURE CARS

I BOUGHT THE "E" TICKET FOR DISNEY LAND AND TOOK EVERY RIDE NOW

SO

I AM JUST GLAD I ALLOWED 2 MORE DOGS AS I SAID NEVER ANOTHER DOG OR CAT I CAN'T STAND THE DYING PART AGAIN

MAA FORCED ME SHE WANTED A BOSTON TERRIER

WHAT IS THAT ???

OH FUCK I FOUND OUT

CASEY WAS FIRST AND ABOUT 8 MONTHS LATER WE GOT CANDI SO WE WOULD HAVE TWO ONE FOR EACH OTHER

THEY LOVED EACH OTHER CANDI RULED THIS HOUSE I NEVER SEEN A DOG LIKE A BOSTON TERRIER AMAZING SHOCKING JUST MORE PLEASURE THAN I EVER HAD WITH ANY DOG

SO I AM A VERY LUCKY GUY TO HAVE THE LEVELS OF LOVE I HAVE HAD FROM ALL MY DOGS AND CATS

NOW I JUST HAVE ONE FOCUS TO TAKE CARE OF AND IT'S ME

AS IT SHOULD BE

I GUESS

OUT DOOR CATS ARE A SNACK FOR LARGE FOX OR COYOTE OR MOUNTAIN LION

MY CAT PEACHES HAD HIS THROAT RIPPED OPEN I RUAHED HIM INTO THE VET SHE MANAGED TO SAVE HIM HE STILL ONLY LIVED TO BE NINE THEY HAD TO REMOVE HIT THYROID SO I HAD TO ALWAYS GIVE HIM HIS PILL

FOR YEARS AND HE WAS BANNED FROM BEING OUTSIDE AFTER THAT HORRIBLE DEAL

IT WAS SO SUREAL FINDING HIM CRYING WITH HIS NECK OPEN I WAS JUST SURE HE WOULD DIE ON ME I WENT INTO AUTOMATIC AND GOT HIM SAVED I DROVE LIKE A CRAZY PERSON ON THE MOUNTAIN ROADS DOWN TO TOWN

I MADE ALL MY CATS JUST STAY INSIDE AFTER THAT I THINK THE FUCKERS NEXT DOOR KIDNAPPED MIRIAH THIS BIG TABBY HE WAS THE BROTHER OF ET MIDNIGHT APPLIANCE WAS HIS MOTHER SHE ALSO DISSAPEARED IN THE MOUNTAINS

HOW CAN SOME ONE SWIPE MY CAT IT CRUSHED MY SOUL HE LIKED THE PEOPLE AND WAS OVER THERE ALL THE TIME THEY KNEW HE WAS MY CAT

I ALWAYS THINK OF HIM WHEN I DRIVE BY THAT OLD HOUSE WE ALL LIVED IN ABOUT 2 MILES FROM HERE

HE WAS SUCH A LOVER BOY CAT HE THOUGHT HE WAS A DOG HE LOVED TO BE SLAPPED ON HIS BACK AND BUTT LIKE I DID TO MY DOGS LOL

HE WOULD SLEEP ONTOP OF THE DOGS WHEN THEY DOG PILE WHEN IT GOT COLD AND I BUILT A DOG HOUSE AND HAD A HEAT LIGHT FOR THE 4 DOGS AND PEACHES MY ORANGE MALE CAT AND MIRAH THE GRAY TABBY

WOULD LAY ON TOP OF THEM ALL

THAT'S WHY I BOUGHT THIS HOUSE SO I COULD CUT IN A DOGGY DOOR AND NOT HAVE TO MOVE BECAUSE OF MY KIDS AGAIN

I WAS SICK OF LIVING IN HORRIBLE PLACES JUST SO I COULD KEEP MY DOGS AND CATS LOL

THEY ALL LOVED THIS HOUSE AND THEIR DOGGY DOOR

FUCK THAT WAS SO HARD I HAD TO CUT THROUGH TWO LAYERS OF METAL ON THE DAMN DOOR I NEVER HAD INSTALLED A DOGGY DOOR LOL

I BUSTED I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY JIG SAW BLADES DOING THAT DAMN CUT

IT WAS WORTH IT TO KNOW MY DOGS COULD COME INSIDE WHEN EVERYTHEY WANTED IF I WAS OUT IN TOWN WORKING

PLUS I PUT THEIR WATER INSIDE AND DRY FOOD SO THE RACCOONS STOPPED ALMOST FIGHTING WITH MY DOGS THEY CAN BE VERY CREEPY WHEN PUFFED OUT AND ALL THOSE SHARP TEETH SHOWING I HAD A CLOSE CALL WITH ONE MONSTER BIG ONE

THEY CAN BLIND AND KILL A DOG IF THEY GET ON IT'S BACK I WAS LATER WARNED

CITY BOY LEARNS ALONG THE WAY OH MAN

WELL ZIGGY IS WHAT 7 TIMES 15 =105 YEARS OLD IN HUMAN YEARS

DOESN'T HELP AT ALL DANG IT

WELL I SEEM BETTER TODAY IT WAS A FUFF LAST NIGHT BEFORE I FINALLY WENT TO SLEEP

IT'S THAT WAY ONE DAY I AM SURE I AAM FRIKEN DYING THE NEXT I THINK WOW I SURE FEEL BETTER THAN YESTERDAY

THAT'S LIFE WHAT YOU GONNA DO

WELL GIVE ZIGGY A COUPLE HUGS FROM CHARLIE HE WILL KNOW WHO YOU MEAN

YES I HAVE MOSTLY HAD INSIDE CITY CATS THAT I WOULD MAYBE LET OUT IF THEY WOULD RETURN AND NOT STAY GONE AND THEN COME HOME

I WORRIED TOO MUCH ABOUT THEM

LOVE WAS ALWAYS JUST A INSIDE CAT SHE DIDN'T LIKE BEING OUTSIDE SHE WOULD RUN AND CRY RIGHT AWAY TO GET BACK IN

RIZZO LIKED BEING A LION CAT LOL

SHE WAS BOWL LEGGED ON HER BACK LEGS SHE WAS MY CAT OF ALL CATS SHE ALSO THOUGHT SHE WAS A DOG

SHE WAS SUCH A BOSSY GIRL AND RULED THIS HOUSE

I SAVED HER FROM BEING PUT TO SLEEP WHEN SHE SCREAMED AT ME AT THE DOG POUND I SAID THAT IS MY NEW CAT I WANT HER

HE THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY HE SAID SHE IS A LITTLE HARD TO DEAL WITH LAUGHING BOY WAS THAT A UNDERSTATEMENT BUTT SHE BECAME MY CLOSET BUDDY ALMOST THE SAME AS CASEY WAS WITH ME

SHE LOVED JOE WHEN HE DIED IN BED AND I WAS CRYING AND WAITING FOR THE MEN TO COME PICK HIS BODY UP SHE JUMPED ON THE BED AND LAID ON JOES DEAD CHEST AND I TOOK HER OFF HIM WHEN THESE MEN SHOWED UP

THEY STARTED TO GET READY TO PICK HIM UP AND IN FLIES RIZZO AND SHE WENT RIGHT OVER AND LAID ON JOES CHEST THEY BOTH LOOKED AT ME AND AT EACH OTHER

SOMETHING ODD WAS GOING ON WE ALL PICKED UP ON IT AS SHE KEPT MOVING HER HEAD LIKE SHE WAS SEEING A FLY OR SOMETHING MOVING NONE OF US SAW ANYTHING

I KNOW SHE WAS SEEING JOE IN ENERGY FORM IT HAD TO BE

MORE SHIT WENT DOWN LIKE THAT AFTER JOE DIED

BLINKING BATH ROOM LIGHTS AND RIZZO WATCHING SOMETHING MOVE IN THIS BEDROOM

EVEN STAR PUPPY A SHEP MIX WAS CLOSE TO JOE BIG TIME AND SHE MOVED HER HEAD LOOKING AT SOMETHING JUST LIKE I WATCHED RIZZO DO MANY MANY TIMES

I NEVER BOUGHT INTO LIFE AFTER DEATH MUCH UNTIL THIS ALL WENT DOWN

I THINK OUR PETS AND PEOPLE HANG AROUND FOR A TIME

OR THEIR ENERGY DOESN'T LEAVE AS FAST AS WE WOULD THINK

JOE PISSED ME OFF HE LEFT NO SUICIDE NOTE 17 YEARS LATER I FOUND 8 PAGES HIS SUICIDE LETER IN THE PHOTO ALBUM WHEN I WAS CLEARING OUT A BEDROOM CLOSET NEXT DOOR TO THIS ONE

I WAS GOD SMACKED TO SAY THE VERY LEAST AFTER ALL THOSE DAMN YEARS I HAD WHAT I WANTED

JOE HAD WOKE ME UP AROUND 2 AM TO TELL ME HE TOOK ALL HIS PILLS WHICH WOULD KILL HIM

FUCK

SO I HELD HIM AS LONG AS I COULD UNTIL THE SHAKING WAS TOO MUCH FOR ME I HAD TO WALK OUT INTO THE LIVING ROOM

WE HAD LIKE 3 FEET OF FRISH SNOW IT WAS JUST INSANE HOW THE FUNERAL HOME GUYS EVEN DROVE CLEAR UP HERE THEY GOT HERE AROUND 4 AM

NEVER EVER FORGET THAT WILD RIDE IN REALITY

I NEVER HAD ANYONE DIE ON ME LIKE THIS CLOSE TO ME IT WAS SO AMAZING THE WEIRDNESS I FELT

HE WAS ONLY 27 IT WAS JUST HORRIBLE WATCHING HIM SUFFER FOR A LITTLE OVER A YEAR

HE CAUGHT A DISEASE FROM OUR COCKATIEL AS THAT DAMN BIRD WOULD EAT SCRAMBLED EGGS WITH JOE OFF HIS PLATE IT WAS HAND RAISED SO LOVED HUMANS

IT WAS JUST SO SCAREY WITH THE CATS ALWAYS TRYING TO EAT THE BIRD LOL

SO I HAD TO GIVE HIM AWAY TO SOME FRIENDS IN TOWN

THE DISEASE WOULD BLIND JOE THE DOCTOR TOLD HIM AND THEN FRY HIS BRAIN

WE ALREADY WERE SEEING THESE THINGS SO IT WASN'T VERY LONG AFTER THAT TRIP TO LOVELAND DOCTOR AND JOE TOOK HIS OWN LIFE I CAN'T BLAME HIM AT ALL I WOULD HAVE DONE THE SAME

POOR KID

HE WAS LIKE SAYING JIBBERISH AND BASAKWARDS SENTENCES SO HIS BRAIN WAS FUCKING UP BEFORE WE WENT TO THIS SPECIALIST IN LOVELAND