I thought Ziggy was dead today

DOGS ARE SO AMAZING THEY HAVE SUCH LOVE AND IT'S SO REAL AND HONEST

GIVE YUR DOG HUGS TODAY

I HAD 5 KIDS AND MAAA MOVED IN WITH ME AND SHE HAD 3

8 DEATHS AS THEY ALL WERE OLD

I ABOUT LOST MY MIND DURING THAT TIME OF DYING CATS AND DOGS

BROKE MY HEART AND MY MIND

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love you kids

ACTUALLY IT AS REAL LONG AFTER THAT THAT I HAD MY TWO HEART ATTACKS

I NEVER THOUGHT TO GO TO HOSPITAL JUST WONDERED WHY I HAD THE WORST

HEART BURN EVER LOL DUMB ASS

LATER I TOLD DOCTORS WHAT IT FELT LIKE EACH TIME THEY SAID YOU HAD TWO HEART ATTACKS AND AMAZED I SURVIVED

WELL I WAS SO SLOW AFTER THAT MY CLEANING ACCOUNTS TOOK 3 TIMES AS LONG TO GET CLEANED

I KNEW SOMETHING WAS FUCKED UP WITH ME

I THINK ALL THOSE DEATHS JUST CRUSHED MY HEART AND SOUL I WAS BEYOND SAD

OH WELL JUST SO GLAD TO KNOW EACH ONE AND HAVE THEM AS MY FAMILY FOR SO LONG

I STILL THINK ABOUT THEM ALL

LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN SO EMPTY WITHOUT THOSE SWEET LITTLE FUR BALLS

WHELP EARLY DELIVERY FEDEX JUST CAME UP HERE AND DROPPED MY FOOD BOX

12 FRESHLY COOKED MEALS NEVER FROZEN

YESSSSSSS

I YELLED THANK YOU FOR CLIMBING UP HERE MAN

HE SAID YOU ARE WELCOME MISTER

IT'S ALWAYS FUNNY TO BE CALLED MISTER

HE WAS SUCH A THIN YOUNGER GUY

MAN THAT JOB IS CRAZY HARD I THINK

HE JUST CLIMBED ALMOST 3 FLIGHTS OF STAIRS ALL RED ROCKS I PLACED THERE SO SO LONG AGO AS I TOOK A PICK AX TO MY MOUNTAIN AND CUT A TRENCH FOR MY NEW STAIRS

I BUILT THEM THE YEAR JOE WAS DYING I NEEDED TO SWING THAT AX AND CRY

IT WAS SO CATHARTIC JUST LEFTING MAJOR LARGE ROCKS IN PLACE AND GETTING THEM UP THE MOUNTAIN TO PLACE

JOE NEVER GOT TO CLIMB MY NEW STAIRSHE NEVER LEFT THE HOUSE UNTIL HE DIED

SO GLAD I BUILT THEM IT HAS MADE MY LIFE SO MUCH EASIER ALL THESE YEARS

WELL NOW I GOT TO GET DOWNSTAIRS AND GET THEM MEALS OUT OF THAT BOX AND HAUL THEM ALL UP HERE

LOL

LATER I NEED SOME COFFEE AND A POT BOWL

THOSE TWERPS AT AE SURE LIKE TO TRACK ME

THEN THEY GET MAD WHEN I WAVE A FEW COCKS AT THEM

PUSSIES

Quote from Gina

That's horrible. I'm so sorry. It must have been such a low time going through all of that.

How are you now? Is your heart okay?

WELL NO MY HEART WAS BADY DAMAGED THEY SHOWED ME ON SONIC MACHINE MAPPING MY HEART YEARS AGO

THE FRONT OF MY HEAART IS ALL STIFF THEY SAID FROM SCAR TISSUE WHICH CAUSES THIS CRAP THEY CALL HEART FAILURE

BASICALLY YOUR HEART CAN'T BEAT LIKE IT USE TO AND MOVE ENOUGH BLOOD THROUGH YOUR BODY

I CALL IT SLOW OR RETARDED HEART

IT'S BEEN LIKE 16 YEARS THEY SAID HALF DIE THE FIRST 5 YEARS SO I WAS SURE I WOULD BE DEAD AND WASN'T

THEY DID SURGERY AND PUT IN A KICK START IMPLANT TO START MY HEART IF IT STOPS ON ME

IT NEVER HAD TO SHOCK IT BACK WORKING

THE BATTERIES RAN OUT ABOUT 5 MONTHS AGO

NO FUCKING WAY WILL I LET THEM REPLACE IT THAT SURGERY WAS INSANE I NEVER EVER HAD A MAJOR SURGERY WHERE THEY HOOK WIRES INTO MY HEART

IT FUCKIN REALLY FREAKED ME OUT AFTER IT I FOUND OUT THAT IF YOUR BREATHING STOPS FOR LIKE 5 MINUTES YOU ARE BRAIN DAMAGED WELL IT TAKE A 911 CREW OVER 20 MINUTES TO GET TO MY PLACE

SO IT COULD START MY HEART AND ALLOW ME TO LIVE AND BE A VEGGIE...FUCK THAT SHIT

THEY NEVER TOLD ME THAT SO I GOT PRETTY PISSED AT THEM TELLING THEM YOU JUST WANTED TO SELL ANOTHER GADGET $$$ WHICH WAS REALLY TRUE

OH WELL I AM WAY PAST THE NORMAL LASTING TIME OF A HEART FAILURE DUDE

I JUST AM A SURVIVOR AS I NEVER SHOULD HAVE MADE IT PAST MY LATE TEENS OR LATE 20'S LOL

BUTT HERE I SIT LOOKIN AT AGE 65 GOING ON 99 DUE TO MY DRINKING DRUGGING AND SMOKING

WHEN ALL 8 OF MY BABIES DIED OFF I WAS MESSED UP FOR A LONG TIME

BUTT I HAD TAKEN A ACTUAL JOB AS A NIGHT STOCKER AT A GROCERY STORE AS THEY SUPPLIED MEDICAL INSURANCE

MINE HAD GOT SO EXPENSIVE I QUIT PAYING FOR IT ON MY OWN AS I OWNED A SMALL CLEANING COMPANY FOR 17 YEARS SO HAD TO PAY FOR MY OWN MEDICAL COVERAGE

FUCK BLUE CROSS

BASTARDS

SO AS THINGS WORKED OUT I FINALLY QUIT THE GROCERY STORE AFTER A YEAR AND A HALF WORKING MY COMPANY AND THIS DAMN SECOND JOB FOR THE MEDICAL INSURNCE AND EXTRA INCOME

I WENT BACK TO JUST MY CLEANING COMPANY

THEN I HAD THE TWO HEART ATTACKS NOT KNOWING THEY WERE HEART ATTACKS I JUST CONTINUED ON FEELING SO HORRIBLE AND TIRED BEYOND BELIEF

I WAS A DUMB ASS

BUTT I HATE DOCTORS SO JUST DIDN'T GO IN FOR A CHECK UP OR FIND OUT WHY I FELT LIKE TOTAL SHIT MOST OF THE TIME

I THOUGHT I WAS JUST SO DEPRESSED ABOUT LOSING 8 PETS IN ABOUT 9 MONTHS TIME GIVE OR TAKE

MAA HAD THIS 90 PUND DOG MIKO WELL HER HIPS WERE GOING OUT IN BACK SO I HAD TO LIFT HER AND WALK HER OUT AND HOLD HER BACK END UP SO SHE COULD PEE AND POO

SOON AFTER SHE DIED I GOT THOSE TWO HEART ATTACKS ABOUT A MOONTH APART I SAID YOU ATE THEM SEEDLESS WATERMELLONS AND THEY ARE MAN DESIGNED AND GAVE YOU SOME NASTY HEART BURN LOL

IT HURT SO BAD I PLAID ACROSS THE BACK OF MY COUCH SO I COULD PUT PRESSURE ON MY CHEST MASHING IT INTO THE HARD BACK OF THE SOFA

LOL

IT DIDN'T HELP AT ALL

FINALLY THE PAIN FADED EACH TIME AND I HAD TO GO CLEAN ALL MY ACCOUNTS I CLEANED HOUSES AND BUSINESS ACCOUNTS BUTT WUIT HOUSES AFTER THE FIRST 10 YEARS I WAS SICK OF DEALING WITH THE DAMN PEOPLE AND THEIR HOUSE MESSES

I THINK I HAD UP TO 10 HOUSES I CLEANED EVERY TWO WEEKS

SO 20 HOUSES A MONTH AND A BANK AND CREDIT UNION 5 DENTISTS AND A FRIKE T-SHIRT SHOP YUK AND A JOHN DEER COMPANY BUILDING OF OFFICES AND THE BACK WAS THE MAJOR REPAIR SHOP FOR THE BIG TRACTORS AND BACK HOES ETC SO THEIR LARGE BATH ROOM WAS SICK TO CLEAN

I PLAINWAS TOO SAD AND WORKED WAY TO MUCH FOR A OLDER MAN WHAT 50-52 APROX

IT ALL PILED TO HEAVY ON ME LOOKING BACK

BUTT THE DEAD SADNESS OF LOSING EACH PET AND TAKING CARE OF THEM AT THE END WHAT EVER I COULD DO TO LET THEM KNOW I WAS WITH THEM AND TRIED TO HELP

IT WAS FUCKED UP MAN

PLUS I HAD MAA MOVED IN WITH ME SO THAT WAS ALSO VERY TAXING SHE WAS A NIGHTMARE TO BE SURE

SO NOW I LOVE BEING BACK TO THE HERMIT AND WHATEVER TIME LEFT I MAY HAVE I WANTED IT TO BE HERMIT TIME AND NICE AND MELLO AND QUIET

I CAN HEAR A DEER FART UP HERE AT NIGHT LOL

I DID HEAR ONE SNORING THEY SLEEP AND LEAN AGAINS THE BACK BEDROOM WALL AND I KEPT HEARING WHAT SOUNDED ALMOST LIKE SNORING

WELL IT DROVE ME CRAZY SO I WENT OUT WITH FLASHLIGHT ONE NIGHT SURE ENOUGH 3 DEERS WERE ALL SLEEPING AGAINST MY HOUSE WALL

THEY HAVE DONE THIS FOR GENERATIONS NOW

I HAVE TWO SPOTS RIGHT NEAR THE FRONT DOOR THEY ALSO SLEEP THERE REX HAS HORNS I NAMED HIM

BUTT THEY DISAPPEAR AND THE YOUNGER ONES COME IN FAR AS I CAN TELL JUST LOOKIN AT THEM

WHAT WAS THE QUESTION LAUGHING

OH YEAH

MY HEART IS BAD IT HURTS AT TIMES AND JUST WON'T LET ME LIFT MY ARMS UP HIGHER OR LIFT MUCH OF ANYTHING

IF I DO IT IT TAKES MY BREATH AWAY AND I GET THIS HEADRUSH OF DIZZY

DAMN IT

SAME WITH CLIMBING STAIRS OR WALKING ANY DISTANCE

PISSES ME RIGHT OFF NOW DAYS

SO I SET EVERYTHING UP TO HELP ME I HAVE A WALKER WITH A SEAT ON THEM BOTH 2 RED ONES I BOUGHT

AMAZON

AND A RED WHEEL CHAIR I BOUGHT ALL THIS YEARS AGO FOR MAAA NEEDING THEM BUTT SHE NEVER NEDDED THEM

HA

NOW I DO AT TIMES THE WHEEL CHAIR I GEEP IN THE VOLVO WAGON AS IT WON'T START SO I HAVE NO GARAGE UP HERE

I USE MY OLD VOLVO WORK WAGON FOR STORAGE I KEEP A WALKER DOWN THER NOW PLANNING AHEAD TO USE IF I TAKE A CAB TO TOWN TO SEE HEART DOCTOR ONCE A YEAR

AND THE TRIP TO GET BLOOD TESTS BEFORE I SEE THE DOCTOR

NOTHING THEY CAN DO FOR ME I AM TAKING THE HIGHEST LEVELS OF PILLS DOSE THAT I CAN

KEEPING THE LUNGS FROM FILLING UP WITH LIQUID AND THE WEIRD UNEAVEN OR BUZZING HEART I GET WITHOUT THIS ONE PILL

SO AS BAD AS IT SEEMS AT TIMES IT'S PRETTY GOOD AS I HAVE STAYED ALIVE AND INDEPENDENT

I HAVE ONE GUY RJ NOW THAT GETS MY MAIL MY POT AND CIGS ONCE A MONTH HE IS A BAD BOY 30 YEAR OLD KID WITH I GUESS ONE LEG IS FAKE HIS BOSS LADY TOLD ME HE NEVER HAS MENTIONED THIS

HE HAS TATS ON HIS HANDS AND REMINDS ME OF MY OLD BIKER TYPE FRIENDS GEORGE AND DICK THEY BOTH LIVED UP HERE AND DIED OF HEART ATTACKS TOO

DICK DIED IN MY LIVING ROOM WHILE HOUSE SITTING FOR ME YEARS AGO

JOE DIED IN OUR BED SO I CALL THIS THE DEATH HOUSE NOW

I SEE EACH SPOT WHERE ONE DIED ON ME

AND SAY SHIT HAPPENS MAN

FUCK CHUCK

OON WITH THE SHOW

MOE

I THINK CASEY DIED LAST YEAR ANYWAY HE WAS MY LAST DOG

SO I THOUGHT OH MAN YOU WILL DIE FAST NOW WITH NO DOGS IN THE HOUSE

I DON'T SEE YOU LIVING MUCH LONGER ONCE CASEY GOES

BUTT AS USUAL I WAS WRONG I AM STILL CAUSING TROUBLE AS BEST I CAN

THATS THE TERM THEY USE CONGESTIVE HEART FAILURE AND I GOT COPD OR LUNG CLOGING 18 % CAPACITY LEFT THEY SAID A COUPLE YEARS BACK

I ONLY NEED A LITTLE OXYGEN HELP WHEN I PUSH MY HEART TO FAR

LIKE DOING ANY STAIRS LIFTING OR DISTANCE PAST 30 FEET GIVE OR TAKE

SO I AM GETTIN WORSE GO FIGURE LOL

I FEAR DEATH ONLY IF I SUFFER

IF I JUST WAKE UP DEAD THAT WOULD BE FINE WITH ME TO GO IN MY SLEEP

I GUESS EVERYONE SAYS THAT