I saw some guy in the train today who looked a lot like him and instantly the hair on the back of neck stood up... even just the thought of seeing his fucking face ever again creeps me out.
What happened? Apart from ringing on my door bell every hour of the day or night to the point I disconnected the wires, he beat the crap out of me, he went to my father's home (I had no contact with my father at the time) and threatened him.
There was never any relationship or "love", he was just obsessed with me.. Finally after about 6 years the police notified me he'd been locked up in a mental institution after he'd beaten the shit out of another girl (victim). She actually came to visit my house to ask about my experience with him (before it happened) and I tried to warn her.
Nowadays, he'll turn up a couple of times a year, ring my doorbell looking totally psycho and obviously inebriated. (I have a camera on my intercom system now) I do not react, in fact I do not use the rooms at the front of my home so I can pretend not to be home. Can you imagine not using half your house for over 10 years because some cunt has it in for you?
And all because I tried to help him once because the people he lived with were a bad influence, giving him drugs, knowing full well it fucked with his Schizophrenia medication. I encouraged him to take it, instead of the coke and marijuana his housemates were giving him so they could have a good laugh...
He could have been a world famous classical pianist, he was genius, like really insanely good pianist.
I met him when I was a sound engineer and had to record him.
Oh almost forgot how he made my working as a live music engineer a hell, by turning up staring at me until I had him thrown out every other fucking week..
There's just too much to contemplate even writing about everything he did.To be honest, I wouldn't know where to start.
I was once sympathetic, believing he was just ill and needed help. He has ruined part of my life and changed my personality and the way I approach people, or rather avoid them... very sad.
I do not know your story or history or your connection with this Australian woman but the way you are obsessed (obviously), your thoughts and actions, reminds me of my stalker.
Your "love" is not realistic in any way, shape or form, that much is clear and I sincerely hope you choose to leave the woman alone, for her sake and your own. If you really care about her, you'll let her go. You can not force anyone into loving you.
Oh btw, I do not click on link to GLP (haven't for over 2 years) because the energy there is sick.
Hey. : )... Thanks for posting that.
Regarding GLP.... It's definitely a kind of "high-energy" place.... like.... you have to be able to take honest criticism there, and it may not always be pleasant...... but I love GLP.
It's like on big like............. gladiator area of sorts : P
Just so like... over the top.
lol... people are always willing to state their honest opinions and stuff there. I like GLP.
And regarding that man who you've been dealing with the last 20 years........
You said there was no "relationship" or "love" between you two........... but did he "love" you?...... Like why do you think he was so attracted to you?
To be honest..... I have never had someone "stalk" me, or anything like that, IRL before.......
The closest thing I can think of is some guy like..... constantly posting on my GLP threads..... like..... insulting me.
Constantly........ : P
He goes by the handle "Larry D. Croc".
He is some retired guy.
I really do not talk to him unless he talks to me first, minus one time.
And I have entertained the idea of him being like... some kind of stalker. Harasser.
But I really don't consider him to be that......... for he's really a nice person.
I think he could had be "wary" of me at first, but now I think he just insults me constantly on my threads because he's bored?....
But I actually do like him!!
He's a nice guy, in reality.
I have found out that literally all interpersonal problems are just simply misunderstandings.....
Like....... both people misunderstanding the other.
Like in the case with "Larry D. Croc"....... there have been times when I thought he was like....... acting crazy.
Harassing me about like..... everything.... : P
But after some time of dealing with him..... I've learned that he's really a nice, and down-to-earth person............ who just has a certain kind of sense of humor, I'd say.
And I think he constantly posted on my threads because he was wary about me posting so much about that Aussie woman who I love....... especially after she joked/exaggerated about me being some kind of psycho guy : P
She as joking around.
I actually have love for that guy.
From what I have come to learn........... all interpersonal issues are merely just misunderstandings.
There is a sound reason for everything people do......... but that reason may or may not be easily visible......
But it's there.
If I could offer you advice in dealing with this man who you have been dealing with for the last 20 years... in one word?????
It would be - Kindness.
Just simply being kind, nice, totally-compassionate and understanding towards him.
And to not take everything so seriously.
Joke around.... : )
You don't need to take it seriously.
Kindness/love/compassion only creates more kindness/love/compassion.
I GUARANTEE... that if you act kind, loving, compassionate, and understanding towards him...... totally unconditional love....... he WILL act in the same way in return.
I know you said you don't go on to GLP....... but I actually wrote this out to someone who is actually dealing will something similar to you at the moment.....
I write a few posts, all the way to the end of the thread.
I recommend that you read it.