and here comes my phone call.
Now if I ever do answer it's going to be awkward.
and here comes my phone call.
Now if I ever do answer it's going to be awkward.
Block his number.
No one at work knows you are trans because you don't have to tell now, your birth
cert. says you are a woman? If that's true then its risky to tell him. Consider this truth:
"I like you Larry but I have to tell you, I like girls. Just so you know."
Its all true.
This guy's name is Herb and he's from the place where I used to work.
But yeah my birth certificate says female and even my background check comes back has female.
On a side note, when I was hired at my last job they had to do a background check and then in California by law you are allowed to receive any information that the employer receives on you as a background check.
So I requested that information because I was terrified that it would be in there somewhere that my old name and all that. But it wasn't!
The birth certificate is still a little confusing for me. Because on record in the official records they don't just get rid of your old birth certificate, which makes sense. But somehow no one can find it. I'm not quite sure how that works.
As far as I know, no one has ever known.
The thing with herb is that he's not flirting with me asking me out or anything like that. He's just calling and saying how was your day. Lol
So in the face of that it's kind of hard for me to just say I don't want you calling me anymore I like girls. Lol
It's just hard for me because. I guess I'm too nice.
I didn't even want to talk about him to you guys before because I feel that's not cool to slag people behind their back when I should be saying it to their face.
I've ghosted him since you guys told me to and I feel bad. He still calls me all the time and texts me.
He didn't do anything wrong. That's being mean isn't it?
It makes me feel bad.
I spent a half an hour on my drive home speaking with Larry and then another guy got on the phone because Larry always has people on the phone. Lol.
But Larry is really cool and we just talk about normal stuff. Like what's been going on, he asked me about an HD antenna cutting the cable and all that.
But I suspect that Herb might have called Larry. I'm not sure. But not long after I hang up with Larry Herb called me. Of course I didn't answer.
So it makes me feel awful.
He's leaving me texts. Like how's the music going?
as long as it remains a normal conversation whats the problem?
as long as it remains a normal conversation whats the problem?
He likes Gina in a way that she doesn't like him I suspect.
It's just that he calls and texts every day
It's just that he calls and texts every day
Because he likes you. Romantically.
I still feel absolutely rotten. Herb still text me innocent things like how was your day? Or how's the music going?
I feel like such a shit for not responding. That's not fair to anybody is it?
I had a long day today. Forgive me if I don't respond to some stuff here are comment on videos. I don't have a lot of time while I'm driving around and getting my fingers dirty. Lol
Getting your fingers dirty is fine, just don't get the ink under your nails.
I've managed to really avoid ink lately. I'm getting smarter about how I work on things that fling, spill and spray ink everywhere.
But really, I feel so rotten about just ignoring Herb. He never crossed a line. He's a nice guy.
I wonder if the ladies that have scorned me over the years have had this sort of moral dilemma.
Doubt it.
Yeah, I don't know. Lol.
Like there are guys that I can easily brush off. Like very much dislike and brush off.
Herb is just a nice guy and I worked with him. More of a friend, even though I know he likes me as more than that.
But I never let it get past being friends and he's never pushed it past that. So for me it's like I'm just dumping a friend for no reason.
I mean there is a reason. It's that it annoys me to get texts and phone calls every single day. But I don't want to just shut them out completely.
And now if I let it go longer when I do talk to him it's going to be like why the fuck?
Oh well. I just have a big heart when it comes to people's feelings.
Just tell him to get off the gas, explain you're not into him "that" way, and see what happens.
In my youth I figuered out the babes don’t really want a “nice guy”. They want a tiny undercurrent of macho/mystery/not interested/independence, capable of violence against bad guys, whatever.
Think Bronson, or Kwai Chang Caine
even though I know he likes me as more than that.
Either talk to him and tell him you know he likes you and you're not interested in anything other than friendship or block him and get on with your life.
Or string him along, you might be able to at least get a new guitar out of it.